Archive | 16 February, 2012

Tired But Not Sleepy

Feb16

Yes, you can be tired without being sleepy. ME sufferers will recognise this frustrating situation well. So while I lie here in bed, connect to here via my phone and try to make myself tired enough to be sleepy, you lucky people reading this get to know what my achievements were today (well, yesterday really, but tomorrow only starts after I’ve slept).

Dad and I travelled back from my clinic, though what should have been a nice 1 hour 30 minute journey at the very most turned into an arduous 3 hour 30 minute haul, all thanks to a road closure and subsequent traffic jam. However with the help of my trusty phone and its various apps, I found out exactly what was going on and created a diversion.

When finally we were home we were more than ready for lunch, so had a meal at Sainsbury’s. Nothing special and it was only just lukewarm, but it filled a gap that needed filling. Plus, I didn’t react adversely to it. That was my sixth meal that I happily ate. It’s so good to eat again! I love my food!

Lunch eaten, I deposited my crutches at Customer Services and traded them in, albeit temporarily, for a bright orange mobility scooter. With the help of Dad, who got everything from the shelves I couldn’t reach (which was most of the time), I managed to do the first full grocery shopping in a long time. Without that scooter I wouldn’t be able to do it. I’m just so pleased I had the courage to start using them. For as long as I need them, I’m not turning back.

My oldest friend came over this evening to see me too. I normally wouldn’t have had visitors after such a long and busy day, however it was really good to have the company. Today is the most poorly he’s probably ever seen me, and yes I did feel self-conscious with my skin flared and being so skinny (or as he kindly put it, slender), but I think in some ways it did me good to allow someone to see me ill like that. Probably all ways if I think about it!

One of my best friends also phoned up briefly just to check on me after my trip away to the clinic. I am lucky to have some really good friends around me. I might not see them all as much as I’d like, but to have them there is amazing.

I know that in one day I did a lot, more than I have done since my health nose-dived almost 2 weeks ago, but it made a nice change from feeling utterly weak and cut-off from the real world. I must take it easy for the next few days, but hopefully I can get some strength and finally, maybe, even arrange to have friends over – there are a few I haven’t seen in such a long time, and with one thing and another it just hasn’t happened. I do need to try and straighten the flat up a bit though!

Now I think I can sleep.