They say that life is for learning. When you have ME you learn something every day. Usually it’s what you can and can’t manage to do, and this can change every day.
Today I woke at 9am and got up at 9:30am. A real achievement as this is the earliest in a month that I have been up this early. Having learned from yesterday that I am still very run down and more so in the evenings, I decided to have a bath and to wash my hair.
I was just making a cup of tea to sit down for a rest after my bath, when Sainsbury’s came with my groceries. Having dealt with that I then received a phone call from a lady who wanted to ask me some questions about allergies. I don’t mind helping when I can, but I hadn’t realised how long we were on the phone for – 2hrs!
While I have done things today, and some very good things in some cases, it was far too much for me. I am currently reclined in my chair with my feet up, under a snuggle blanket and in some pain despite my pain medication. I need help.
Needing help is something in the past I have found difficult to accept. Asking for it was even harder. Lately I have become more accepting of the fact that I need to ask for help. Today I realise I need that help as soon as I can get it. It is not failure on my part, nor a sign of a weak mind. Quite the opposite. I am going to start practicing what I preach. When my GP returns from his hiatus I will request that he starts the process of getting me some help to look after myself.
For me, the biggest achievement is not what I’ve done today, it’s the realisation of what I need and when.
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